Moving

I just made the final opinion about moving. I have said that I’m scared and nervous and I have a little ansiety about it, so on and so on. Last night I finally said after everything that had happened in the last 4 months…I simply can not wait. I cant wait to meet new people, go to a new school, have an apartment with my best friend trying to figure out the big world, and basically starting a whole new life and one of my top goals in this new life I’m going to begin is….not letting my past life colid/mesh with my new one. To that there are acceptions and that’s if the past wasn’t ‘toxic’ to me then I would let it mesh but in the case of what I’m talking about there is not a lot of cases where that is true. Things I have been hearing about moving is, the fact that when I do get comfortable up there in the cities its so busy all the time and there’s a really small chance that I won’t find new people to hang out with and that makes me excited and nervous at the same time. Excited cause DUH new people and I’m getting sick of Rochester just for the fact that I feel like I know everyone or seen them before. And Nervous because well DUH meeting new people their NEW! So I’m nervous and scared for the same reason basically.
Along with all of that Tayler and I are going up to the cities tomorrow and looking at an apartment that she found while I was at school. Thank goodness it’s a early realease, or I don’t know if we would be going. This apartment is in uptown Minneapolis and it had everything Tayler and I had on our list plus a pool ! even though we wont be able to use it..unless we love it up there and want to stay in the cities all summer, which could possibly happen. I just stated up top I’m sick of rochester. Anyway the apartment is not to much to ask for a month and the place is really nice. It has something that was top on our list and that was it was a locked area so you had to have a key to get in. This place is also a family area so, if we needed extra help with money BABYSITTING and that’s not even a hard job as long as you get along with the kids.
Another thing to make this all happen, I need a job. Currently I don’t have one and that makes me so mad cause I need one in the worst way. On conversation I had with my mom was why don’t I go for fast food places, its money and I don’t have anything agains fast food places I just don’t want to know what’s really going in my food. Simple as that, I want to be able to eat my McDonalds and think wow think is what it went through to get into this bag and in my hands right now, I just don’t want to know. My mom rolled her eyes and just walked away. Yesterday I went out and filled out about 5 applications, but before that I went back to one place and asked them where they were at with everything and she said that they don’t hire summer help. WHY NOT! I’m a good worker and I want to hours cause I need to money. This is one reason why I don’t want to move just because I cant get a job. Today I’m going to summery places like golf courses and pools and some places that I see only open in the summer time or when it gets nice. WISH ME LUCK, I’ll need it.